Today was a little lonely, but nice and quiet. I decided to use a face mask Adam had got me. Peeling off what felt like my face was kinda cool though. Hooray for relaxing!
Adam sent me a ‘Love Bomb’ of texts today and I’m posting this because I’ve been working on not getting so embarrassed by these kinds of things. I know that I was designed to be Adam’s wife, and it’s been a privilege, but I’ve been super weird about expressing that around others. I tend to not be very serious about how much he means to be and I don’t want to be that way any more. Here’s to being comfortable with who I am in my relationship with my wonderful Spouse Man!
[I know this sounds silly, but I’ve come a long way this year. I’ve gotten comfortable enough to kinda snuggle when we’re home and we have people over. I’ll freely let him hold me while we are out. PDA isn’t something either of use are super into but his love language is touch, so I need to be less distant while in public. I’m getting there!!]
When I spent over an hour shopping at Michael’s [I was just there Saturday, but I forgot some things.] and forgot my wallet as I was in line to check out, I only came unglued in one corner. I actually think it’s hilarious instead of infuriating. Laughing at my mistakes makes them a lot easier to deal with.
[Check out theses awesome bird clips! I think I need these for some cool hair pieces…]
The book Unglued gave me something to think on today…”Those labels [the negative self talk things] start out as little threads of self-dissatisfaction but ultimately weave together into a straitjacket of self-condemnation.” The author really hit home for me when she talked about her messy closet. Just because things are messy it doesn’t make me a mess, it simply means the room needs cleaned. No more condemnation for this child of God!
[Special Note: I shouldn’t have labeled this cookie as ‘delicious’ just because it looked that way…]
Thank God for 2013. I’ve been so incredibly blessed in the friend department I could cry. I could live a 1000 lives and still not deserve all the love and grace my friends have for me. Thanks for the snacks and putting up with me talking for basically 2 hours, Hannah. And thanks for talking for basically 2 hours with me, Hannah. Having fun is fun…really.
[So, tonight two of my great friends and I went to see Catching Fire. It. Was. So. Fun. I don’t get giddy or giggly but these two seem to pull it right out of me!!]
I’m being that person who posts pictures of food again… Tonight I took some great marriage advice I was given by my good friend Josy, learn to like surprises a little [or at least pretend to…]. Adam wanted to make spaghetti and homemade meatballs this last week, but I kept dodging the meal because I thought it would be terrible. When I trusted Adam and tried them I was pleasantly surprised! I really do think of that advice often, and I’ve learned to like surprises MUCH better.
[This DD won’t mean much if you don’t understand how much I didn’t like surprises before. One year my friend Josy wanted to throw my friend and I a surprise birthday party because our birthdays are only a week apart. I would have been cool with it except for the fact that it was a surprise and I didn’t know these friends very well yet. I had made plans to do something with some cousins instead of going to the party for my friend but Adam, knowing It was also a party for me, asked me to cancel those plans to spend the day with him. While we were dating I would jump at the chance to spend time with him, so I cancelled. He picked me up and told me after we went to the party we would go out…I kinda flipped out hard. When plans changed it would cause something in me to snap and by the time we got to what was also my birthday party I was almost screaming. I cooled off enough to walk in the door and have all my friends shout ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY!’… I felt like they were making fun and with barely controlled rage told them it wasn’t my birthday. They explained the surprise and in front of ALL OUR FRIENDS I told Adam I hated him and hated surprises and walked past everyone into the party. I still feel horrible about that, but I’ve overcome a lot of that I really see how wonderful surprises can be!]